Next Friday I will be getting on a plane to travel to America, and I am excited.
I’m also nervous, and feeling like everything is changing. I packed my main suitcase today, and while to a lot of people that might seem like way too in advance, actually, given that I’m moving my whole life, I need to make sure it all fits, and that I’m not missing anything, as well as it being stuff that I won’t need in the immediate future. So now I have a large packed bag of stuff, the remaining stuff is only things that I need day to day, and clothes that I am either wearing, or are due to be washed and will go in to one of my bags.
I have started feeling over the last two days that while I’m excited about all of this, that I’m leaving a lot behind, and that’s starting to sink in now, and I’m not surprised by that. It’s going to be a huge change, and I know I’ve signed up for that, but now that it’s a week away, I’m starting to take on the scope of the change that is going on.
I’m taking a trip to London tomorrow, and I hope to either keep myself distracted, or use it as a way to think about what’s going on. I just want to wander around, go to a few places, and have a good time.
This weekend is going to be odd as well, as I have a few other things planned. I think Monday and Tuesday next week are the only days I don’t have things planned now, even if the things are small.
When recording the podcast for yesterday, this stuff hadn’t really sank in, and now it’s feeling more real, and I’m concerned that it’s a lot of change all at once, from living at my parents house currently, to the end of next Friday living with my Fiancee and soon after being married, it’s all happening very quickly. I hope over the next few days, with the people I’m seeing and talking to, that I can, well, talk it out, and get some other points of view.
There’s so much to think about, and my brain is frequently firing things off, even if they’re complete nonsense. Having done nearly everything is satisfying, however, I keep thinking I’m missing something. I’m sure I’ve thought of nearly everything, but who knows right now, if I haven’t thought of it by this point, will I actually be able to think of things I’m forgetting and miss something glaring, or have I actually thought of all I need?
It’s a bit of an existential crisis day here, but not to worry.
Have an excellent day! You’re all my favourites!